Nothing is"Either/OR".. EVERYTHING is"BOTH/AND".. GOOD/BAD?

Fri. May 29, 2026, 7:45 am. edit1 June 3, 2026, 8:00 pm.

IS it that everything has an opposite .. BUT!! even the OPPOSITE has "good" AND "bad" or negative AND positive aspects for it??! So we have to CALCULATE which helps the most the most and HARMS the least the least for what we are biased to BUT ALSO THE OPPOSITE!! WE no longer take time for that NORMAL Human CONTEMPLATION. 😱 No wonder the world is ending.  If I want NO GUN but my son WANTS a gun .. I have to CONSIDER WHY? would he ever WANT THAT?? Once you start calculating how safe young men feel from POLICE, who are too often control freaks vs Humanly SUPPORTIVE beings (Left brain action warriors) I can begin to see young men do not feel SAFE in their own country. I guess not carry a gun helps.

Life is GRAY!! NOT .. lazy black and white. Our JOB as a HUMAN is to calculate the shade of LIGHT or the SHADE of DARKNESS. Everything in natural world is LIGHT or DARKNESS .. BUT .. BOT .. AT THE smae time!! is this why I am so damn confused. I think I finally GET it. ALL things in our HUMAN Family and home are dark (bad) and LIGHT (good) AT THE SAME TIME!! SUN is fabulous but if you had to work in the BLAZING sun for 12 hours you would be dead of being fried. NO sun or DARNESS would be horrible. BUT ALL DARKness would be TERRIBLE. So I am right each side of what we may think is good OR bad actually needs to be calculated for MODERATION so the 2 can balance. God I am so BRAIN DEAD this just escapes my UNDERSTANDING. It has CONFUSED me for so long. Anybody else wondering nah .. because you are NOT IDIOTS LIKEXME .. pondering and pondering all things. But I am beginning to WONDR if we really KNOW anything? I was thrown out of a "university" for being excited that we generalize too much! Maybe that ties in here? WE do not even KNOW what TRUTH is and FAIR is certainly so hard to CALCULATE. I went thru life for about 75 years thinking FAIR was such an easy way to run the world. BUT that is a HARD thing to do because FIRST it reqires TRUTH .. and truth is gone in our society today Left brain "TAKERS" just use whatever ideas or half facts suit them. TWISTING for "ME!" HARMS OTHERS. Is that why life is so hard? We have lost the skill and patience to sit around a fire and contemplate? 

Above added to at some point .. Wed. June 3, 2026.

If we could control the sun (WE DO and got arrogant over it when we invented ON/OFF electricity.) if we control the "sun" (light) should we not stop and think how much is best? HAH!! if I ran the world we would not have ?? too bright skies because of cities. I notice in my new place everybody leaves on lights all night!! .. Then we complain we need MORE power. STOP WASTING IT you irresponsible BABIES! We are stupid and worse .. insane. 🤪 Why are you nto USING POWER in a RESPECFUL RESPONSIBLE mens of MANAGING WASTE. PRODUCTIVITY was to keep down cosys to make more profit. THE GOOD is to not waste. The bad is it was taken ONLY for money and power for the corporation .. DESTROYING ALL other reseurces AND OUR HEALTH! I guess for Life to Be NORMAL .. it MUST BE LIVED in MODERATION! .. in order TO BALANCE the OPPOSING SIDE's POSITIVE and NEGATIVE calculated NET Human VALUE. Our focus on ONLY $$ has destroyed HUMANITY. But we can not HEAR each other because LB SEE close up and RB see FAR and wide Big picture WE/US vs "ME! mine here/now". We have now got so DISCONNECTED as just a HUMAN with a BALANCED BRAIN that THINKS FIRST and then act with FORETHOUGHT ro Left brains that just ACT TO WIN. It is easier for them to take charge .. so we have Myopic Rulers that care only about winning for the SELF. If we cannot hear or SEE the others viewpoint how can we ever cone together? Hence the LAST WAR. WE are just screaming from opposite sides of the street! Real Listen discuss for compromise NORMAL Humans will die. We can not survive the chaos and confusion of TWISTING so NO TRUTH can be found!

Kevin O'Leary on his Data Centre of ? 40,000 acres (Dakota?) .. on CNN

I have not even watched him lately because I do not like him! 😡 But this bit sounded worrisome so I listened, I guess .. WITH AN OPEN MIND! He actually sounded GREAT!! He addressed all the Dat centre Screamer concerns. The BIG Problems we hear about Data centres is from the first ones which is 20 years ago! OMG .. am I a SCREAMER. If screamers are WOKE, they are just the elastic inner ONION SKIN, or SECOND THOUGHT! MAGA kive by only FIRST thought. NORMAL Balanced Hubs have a first THOGHT, move to the second thought and THEN keep going thru ALL the onion layers to the heart or closer to TRUTH. I have beed screaming about Data centres .. maybe more because we should REDUCE our disrespectful WASTE. ON LISTENING to him with an open mind, It does seem this centre is more efficient, quiet and THOUGHTFUL of OTHERS needs! 

It is so sad you always have to look at where the TWISTING is? You can no longer TRUST anything which is totally exhausting. No wonder we NORMAL caring HUMANS are dying. The investment is ?18 billion for a 1000? jobs. They always used to twist in the CONSTRUCTION jobs which are .. SO WHAT?? ..temporary! But I have to say he got my vote in the few minutes he spoke. SO .. if we listen and learn then we can BEGIN a more civil discussion and learn more for closer to TRUTH, so we can calculate FAIR. I now see FAIR is 1) finding closer to REAL TRUTH, no TWISTING! 2) calculate the good and bad value of each +/- value. BUT .. also .. HOW MANY IT AFFECTS? for good OR harm?! LOTS to calculate vs the fast easy ACCOINYING system that has destroyed us! MATH yay is FAR more COMPLEX than our STUPID LAZY IRRESPONSIBLE $ "IN"vs OUT of the bank account! WE quit real human NET VALUE for 100 + years and it has DESTROYED Humanity. Zombies in Dystopia do not COUNT as Humans. We are all heading to the ZOMBIE SPECTRUM with the TOXINS of our IMAGINED "progress" having FRIED OUR BRAIN WIRING!

Looking for excess profit, Big Biz took ever LESS $ OUT of the BIZ LEDGER for the product being made. WIth less quality, and worker pay profits destroyed our supremacy. But America never even noticed. NOTHING CONNECTS which will destroy Humanity. TOTAL Human Health natural connects all things. But SPECIAL destroys connection. FOCUSING ONLY on more PROFT, we have destroyed every factor of CONNECTED Human Health. To be TOTALLY Healthy we need all the Factors of Heath to CONNECT. "Productivity" for only more profit vs responsible resource use has destroyed all REAL quality of life! There is far more to REAL wealth than Money! Besides PHYSICAL health we NEED to feel VALUED and respected plus we need TRUST and HOPE to survive life.

Wed. Jun 3, 2026, 9:00 am.

The cool thing is .. even EVIL PARTS of our life can be taken to positive! maybe that is why we think old people have wisdom? maybe I was able to take the horror of the last 10 months and take the POSITIVE out of it .. because I was finally beginning to see that my ANSWER too EVERYTHING really came from the losses of my life!! The POT of GOLD of life    we can give this to each other when we BEHAVE like the Founding Fathers were expecting. They did not expect Freedom and independence with individuality to become  SHALLOW and SEFISH of CARE FOR OTHERS. Wouldn't WE the People be expected to be a GOOD LIFE for US! They would be so horrified today that the "democracy" they invented FOR GOOD has been taken to far WORSE FOR US than any king! The "MOB on steroids" that runs our life has NONE of the Quality of lIFE for all that Ben franklin intended. The LAST WAR is US "We the People" against THEM! THEY ..  who want ALL the power .. even if it kills NORMAL HUMANS! The Loosh farm writing of 1985 is looking more true! (Do they survive off our suffering? .. live off our pain like we live off bread?) I guess the Last WAR is US NORMAL good Humans aginst those willing to HARM the Human Family and home. 

But over the many versions of my last BIBLE or how we create a REAL good life (NOT money as "success") .. maybe I am wrong. There are many VERSIONS of them. I always thought it was just a few Global FAMILIES of all POWER. Not even Davos .. even smaller. But watching Trump MAGA WOKE behaviour on TV for 1 1/2 year we may have to MURDER far more people. 🤔 I had no problem MYSELF murdering the few PURE evil ones (If we could ever FIND Them!) those willing to destroy "We the People" by the stress of overwhelming daily life that THEY create. BUT in writing this my belief that sugar has fried our THINKNG Brain may be so correct that there are MANY SHALLO gone STUPID zombies we must destroy. (Why is it ok for a Trump and Netanyahu with their ARMY to make others kill for them and get PTSD ???? But when I say we need to kill "the evil" before NORMAL HUMANS are extinct??? The Horror of hidden sugar destroying self control is that we probably ave to go to war against ZOMBIES .. those whose LEFT brain helps them DO .. but there is NO SANE Thinking there! Did Philip K Howard write the death of common sense in 85?? EEEE! That is 30 years ago! Breathing the sugar dust of crap food production plus 5g plus .. plus.. FULLY DESTROYED our brains. WE all TWIST facts and truth for our bias. BUT when the PURE goal is to WIN .. who cares of you destroy the family and home .. EVEN IF YOU ARE BRAIN DEAD .. sorry but we have to kill you. It was so easy when I just believed we are still going to heaven if we kill TRULY EVIL people who harm us. It is far harder to justify killing a major DISABLED brain dead ZOMBIE. Please help me make sense of this. there is no question those I control HAVE NO BRAIN. And they scream so loud any still DECENT corp or POLITICIAN is DROWNED OUT!! 

The beginning of this RANT was that even mental ABUSE (The OPPOSITE to the pot of gold of being confident and feeling DESERVING of "success" and death losses can be taken as positive. I will create a system, A Collective of GOOD Humans, that gives EVERYONE the NURTURE they need, the POT of GOLD we each need for TOTAL human health. It grew our of my LACK unbknownest to me .. it is only clear recently. If I die before this happens .. a lot of ideas were only instituted AFTER they were (INVENTED or) REDISCOVERED! I just do not think there is TIME

May 29 .. is this like my PHOTOGRAPHY as LIFE??

Sat May 23, 2026, 9:45 pm.

I mistakenly always saw the BAD in everything .. always worried. HMM .. no wonder my daughter began to hate me. Was I just (Debbie Downer SNL) a pain forever? 😔 My Niece gave me a Magnet "Always see the GOOD in everything" .. I liked it .. but mostly hated it .. because with a collapsing world that seems like irresponsible laziness. If Only I had a BALANCED think (RH) along with ACT (LH) capable brain. Then I could maybe have SOLD my ideas to actually MAKE change. Look for the positive just felt like a lazy irresponsible cop out like the SHEEP followers we have been. 

But it is true, there IS good, even in WORRISOME situations like A I! When I discovered that A I found an answer for me I thought it could never do, I was very excited to SEE the good of HOW we could use it for the good of Humans not just for evil productivity. It had actually been easier to just see the bad and yell about it. Calculating the best of all things, making FAIR decisions to obtain the most good, and the least harm for the least in the HUMAN Family, is hard slow  work.

Recently it has felt like god is showing me this journey is finally over. The things that started as ?intuition began to be shown every day. It has taken me YEARS to see the of my focus on the NET human VALUE Life Ledger system. WE need to USE my FAIR system for every DECISION, problem or creative idea.

incomplete .. example of losing 2500 .. moved .. relearned resource man .. accomplished MOVE .. love new area! terrible badges WONDERFUL.

Fri. May 29, 2026, 7:45 am.

Yup! Get your head out of the sand! You are going in debt for what??  to have your mind TWISTED?? Hah we need to ALSO FAIR Certify also COLLEGES especially .. there are HUNDRES now just taking young people's money! YEs if teach plumbing or construction that is GOOD but especially UNIVERSITIES are EVIL! POOR POOR Ben Franklin. He began most of these things in America. (Even insurance! And something very weird is happening there. Why so MANY new companies?? Certainly the MORTGAGE CON of OLD people is evil .. but HAH .. may come back to bite them when Housing collapses. Kids can not buy houses! Guess they will all be falling apart rentals now?)

Sorry rein in my WANDERING MIND! Why do I say EDUCATION by Universities is RIPPING you off! A CON scam! Would you agree? EDUCATION .. REAL EDUCATION should be teaching us to LEARN! I am almost 80 and finally realize I will NEVER finish "learning". My Mind is CURIOUS, questioning, constantly WONDERING about EVERYTHING. Why is this? How does that happened? It makes life EXHAUSTING! BUT in the negative /positive, "BOTH/AND Being TRUE at once" sphere .. It ALSO makes life a FASCINATING Adventure!! And when we SHARE our curiosity answers .. THAT is "HUMAN Intelligence" which A I can NEVER TOP because we HUMANS have a SOUL! some A I answers have blown my mind, but sharing my epiphanies with strangers on the street 🙈 is so so much more awe and JOY inspiring! THAT is what a university should be! Sharing the wondrous things we have each learned. YES we need SPECIAL areas but like this BIBLE is saying there is ONLY one recipe for a good life! SHARING and TRADING ALL in our Human Family. A HUMAN Stock exchange where REAL VALUE is calculated and Traded. Where all come out WINNING! All contribute but all receive. If we each contribute MORE to our HUMAN Family than we receive our quality of life is always INCREASING. But those in power have squashed our HUMAN into a bunch of SHEEP!! FOLLOW or else! I now have COMPLETE proof of this SCAM!!

I realized recently our natural Human CURIOSITY and QUESTIONING has been KILLED .. YES DESTROYED! Our Brain physically destroyed First by sugar, then manipulate by TV and humans finally TOTALLY DIVIDED by social (and stress). I had a plan for the INTERNET in mid 90's creating Utopia! COLLECT all TRUTHS (Experts willing to FIELD QUESTIONS and debate) CONNECT them like an ENCYCLOPEDIA on steroids and go from ADVERTISING to connected TRUE Specialties. Why do I need a diaper ad when I am 80?? 🤬 Parents you go to the BABY SECTION! 😁 NOPE .. we went WORSE Life not at all better! Instead of my KILL advertising life BECAME ADVERTISING!

What happened to prove my theory that Universities are PROFIT greedy CONTROL FACTORIES! .. RYERSON happened! I should respect their TMU change because they OPPENED my eyes to my intuition usually BEING RIGHT! But I am too angry at them to put up with their TWISTED WOKE CRAP about Mr Ryerson!! This is life today. PRETEND you are a great human when you are actually a TWISTING left brain TAKE/USE everything for ONLY your OWN BENEFIT. We Live in a TWIST/LIE society .. of course resulting in chaos and confusion. I guess we will be not just the LAST Church/Country but the LAST UNIVERSITY .. but actually teaching "the Recipe for a good life" .. while we teach the love os LEARNING or questioning to find TRUTH and FAIR!! 8:30 am !!

we are the LAST UNIVERSITY .. sharing our ideas and RESEARCH to create Human intelligence ( NOT stupid A I we just use it in MODERATION to HELP us HUMANS!) We  need an ISLAND where we SHUN extreme everything! A new religion church.

add what happened, you STUPID LADY! KICKED OUT re lazy GENERALIZING .. JEWS .. etc etc

Sun. May 24, 2026, 5:00 pm.

It is Memorial Day. They CNN were talking about TAPS and showing a MILITARY cemetery. WE HONOUR the IMPORTANCE of SERVICE. NO! The Armed forces is EVIL! Why the frig should all those young men DIE .. because some top dogs said "WE ARE GOING TO WAR!" Those who decide that WAR .. NEVER SACRIFICE for country! YES have some kind of group ready for emergency but especially with fires and floods hugely increased use the RESOURCE THERE .. not in the STUPIDITY of war. Yes if I say "war" .. now it counts, but I am god. 😂 Grouchy Old Dictator! g.o.d. But that web site asked for g.o.d disciples or clones .. part of the FAIR Order system. So WE will decide when we have to murder Left brain TAKERS. We will get them to join us then GET OFF THE PLANET with Bezos .. or we have to kill you since you are WILLING to harm our air and water because you are STUPID and selfish!

TAKERS are those Left brains in power. They USE other less EVIL Left brains to do their dirty work of TAKING under the guise of SERVING YOUR COUNTRY. NO You serve your country by EACH OF US working to try to UNDERSTAND the OTHER. What point is killing each other. Go study mcgillcrist EVERYTHING makes sense after you undersatnd the THINK BRAIN vs ACTION brain. TOXINS destroyed our BALANCED BRAIN and now we are too stupid to live!

Incomplete but very NB section! link Mcgilchrist

ACTUALLY serve HUMANITY NOT WAR!! You are weird to THINK going to war is BRAVE .. no it is STUPID and only creates RESENTMENT and now terrorists! How hard is that to THINK about? Of course you have ZERO ABILITY to think more DEEPLY. You can only ACT with never a second or THIRD DEEPER Thought! 

SERVICE to country is good but just broaden to HUMANITY! When all feel valued it all WORKS! Maybe resentment is the worst cancer? Listening to undersatnd the other is WORK not words and mantras. "Can't we just get along?" is excellent but needs HAD WORK, Time and patience. Love is all you need is so STUPID and SHALLOW! Easy Peasy. REAL Respectful responsible LOVE is HARD HARD Time needing SACRIFICE!! 

Serve your country?? The country benefits far more when you serve HUMANS, not YOUR BOss's ENEMY!! Calculating FAIR for Humans simplifies the problems because our problems apply to all religions and countries regardless of skin colour or history! PROBLEMS RESULT FROM TAKERS!!! ALL our problems result from Left Brain TAKERS! So there is ONLY one war. Most my fam friends do it MY WAY .. or we have to kill you (unless you get off the planetWe have ONE Family, ONE Home! FIGURE out the FAIR!

NORMAL Human Life is Savouring the good and BALANCING the BAD! If we take the good extreme it ALWAYS devolves to poisonous cancer. More proof we CRAZY! Shallow and selfish gone stupid and evil. Someone just said 

Wed. May 27, 2026, 7:30 pm.

EVERY SINGLE THING in life is "BOTH .. AND" true at the same time. If you get lazy and make life "Either /OR" .. BINARY .. it destroys ALL because everything is CONNECTED.OUR JOB of life

I can't wait to DIE! A new adventure!. In heaven TIME and SPACE converge so as a SOUL devoid of body you can be anywhere anytime. I am going to PHILA to meet Ben Franklin! and see the printing press and relive PHOTOGRAPHY's beginning! Ken Jennings is awesome! Have not read yet but it sits to renmind me "100 places to go .. AFTER YOU DIE". Hah! I can finally see Switzerland! .. and since TIME COLLAPSES I can spend tons in NYC but still I Phila and buffalo.

The best of my life was in bflo. Because yes" I had a huge "Family" of strangers become friends there! a HUMAN Family! but recently EVERYTHING there is dying! First all my friends and our Favourite meeting place the TOWNE Restaurant! Since covid, trapped in Toronto with loss of my car .. so so much has closed. I never went to Crushinki's Bakery .. but always enjoyed its history and stability. It TOO is closing. Even the huge HOTEL I went to my first conferences at .. gone. Nobody EVER warned me that it is not even old and DYING that is awful it is all the traditions and rituals of our LIFE DYING AROUND US. Does anybody talk about that? I am in constant despair! I guess besides the GOOD side being READY to die .. is that NO stability in CONSTANT CHANGE for young people .. means this will not happened to them. But still not having it is a BAD thing. SEE!! EVERYTHING is BOTH GOOD AND BAD!!

Mon. May 25, 2026, 9:30 pm.

Watching the AMA's I am horrified. My first love was music .. always wanted to be a Rock Star but made a WRONG choice in 1967? whoops WRONG .. see we NEVER stop LEARNING .. IF .. we have a mind OPEN to SEE new things. My wrong turn not going to the audition to join a band was EXACTLY right .. ALL the wrongs from there have created this! Buliesor mental abuse in family 60 year later makes TOTAL SENSE. mental Abuse beings with BULLYING and now America is run by BULLIES everywhere. in the 90's I wondered why NO ONE paid attention to MENTAL ABUSE .. actually far more damaging then PHYSICAL. Nobody listened but now our country is run by those who TWIST and bully! Especial Trump and MAGA/WOKE. I can't stand much more of the world because everything is SCREAMING! In the stupid AMA's you must scream louder than the next guy, dress sluttier, be more outrageous, everything in our world today is SCREAMING . SO .. if you are a quiet thoughtful Right brain the world is very desirous of ESCAPE. No wonder we OVERDOSE, or escape into a screen world in more loneliness.

So .. yes! We CAN blame Boomers for everything! BUT! we were not the ones who took our GOOD IDEAS EXTREME! I swear our new ideas were GOOD but THEN they were taken extreme! I swear I was one of the FIRST to start GARNISHING food .. our food was VERY simple but I always felt things could be necessary and useful BUT could still be BEAUTIFUL! Science PLUS ART? But 56 years later those chef TV shows are HORRIFYING! What kind of brain dead being eta food like that .. a 2 hour work of art .. time and energy that could have been put into saving humanity. hAH! So that is why I hate it. PHony shallow and self ABSORBED .. COMPETITIVE. We did our ORIGINALITY to SHARE JOY! Now everything is PURELY competition. So do NOT blame us for starting the decline. OUR creativity and individuality was AWESOME because it was AUTHENTIC SHARING ,, NOT COMPETITIVE and it was BALANCED and MODERATE requiring SAVORING! NOT  just MORE excess and EXTREME. SELFISH SHALLOW stole our ideas and made EVERY ONE OF THEM .. UGLY .. -10 .. our ideas were +10!! 😢 .. 🤬 .. 😈

move this? Mem. Day may 25

The LAST WAR is ONLY "we the people" GOOD Humans .. AGAINST THEM, those willing to HARM  others for only their own benefit. Corporate greed is STRANGLING America .. greed is actually OK .. but when it CONTINUOUSLY harms the Human FAMILY and Home, then it is time for THEM to get OFF the PLANET. Or UNLESS we murder them .. humans are extinct. Told you it was "THE LAST WAR"! but instead of a hundred STUPID divisions of WAR .. 100 BATTLES! How stupid is it when in evrery area of life we have OPPOSITE TEAMS? There is ONE TEAM ONE PARTY ONE GAME .. We the people .. or the ONE Human family. How did we let NORMAL human life devolve into WARRING teams?? When did life become RABID sport? 

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