RESOURCES we NEED right NOW, for Humans to SURVIVE

Thurs. May 28, 2026, 8:00 am.

FAMILY provides a born body's NURTURE. It is NURTURING .. not BIRTH that creates a HUMAN. Banning abortion is STUPID. A HUMAN was never BORN .. a Human is NURTURED into feeling respected needed and VALUED. As Mayor Tory so PERFECTLY said "BAD Guys are not BORN .. they are MADE!" Without the NURTURE of NORMAL Family we are creating a LOT of BAD GUYS!!

NURTURING is the only real POT of GOLD. Usually our family provides it! Maybe we don't like Jews because .. must be nice to grow up feeling you are THE BEST because you are God's chosen people. Sorry guys god loves ALL of us. The ONLY ONE GOD would never CHOOSE one over the other of his children. There is ONLY ONE GOD .. one who created the universe and US the HUMAN FAMILY. Weave to go back to being ONE Human FAMILY are our species will be extinct. DIVISION kills. Maybe FAMILY just means ALWAYS CONNECTED, NURTURING, and CARING.

These are Resources we need to SURVIVE. WE have lost all family .. NUCLEAR (NORMAL mom and dad) and EXTENDED (relatives are too far). OMG! we even have generally even lost the NEIGHBORHOOD that NORMALLY CARES!! DON"T speak to strangers! but get in their car and pay them (Uber). 🤪 Instead with the LOSS of NORMAL family to RAISE US we have become BINARY .. lazy, "either/ OR" WARRING BEINGS. NORMAL Real GOOD (harming nothing!) Humans are BOTH! AND true at the same time. High rises are good but TERRIBLE at the same time. A I is USEFUL! BUT .. will be DESTRUCTIVE if taken extreme. That will be our LAST invention to take into evil territory. EVIL is the EXTREME of bad .. everything is on a scale or LIGHT SPECTRUM! SHOCKINGLY I was right .. "BUT!" is the most important word! No wonder everybody hated me! When they said positive I said NEGATIVE. HAH! So Both and is maybe better explained by everything positive has a NEGATIVE SIDE .. a "BUT!" My daughter did say DISDAININGLY .. "there's always a BT!" Wow, just WOW, talk about FULL CIRCLE! I really am a GENIUS! if only I had been NURTURED to BELIEVE in myself!! This would have been out to you to USE, 20 years ago and we could have SAVED HUMANITY. So we can blame NO NURTURE (or raised to be CONFIDENT and FEEL DESERVING) is probably the WORST TOXIN!! 

Yike!!!! did my daughter BECOME more Left brain because my head was always in the "WE/US", instead of "ME/mine" Life Ledgers?? SHE felt devalued and unseen and their NEGLECTED

Mon. June 1, 2026, 12:30 pm.

This is my worst writing EVER! may make no sense because I cannot remember the exact order of things since it was so AMAZING. SEE extreme always mess up SOMETHING! Hah!

We need to destroy toxic BAD Energy. If we have no TRUST and HOPE bad energy rules. But if we have VCONNECTED as the ONE Human Family we can getvthru this and even have FUN, raise each other's spirits and "MAKE their day!" In so doing our OWN DAY feels way better! Inspired we accomplish more GOOD and also Moore for SELF. When these BALANCE in moderation there is QoL for all. (Quality of Life). Moderation? I guess as long as AUTHENTIC the good energy can never be too much. SOMEHOW I have always KNOWN .. when something is NOT AUTHENTIC. When it was given as "I'm so great, I must win" or something I have always hated everything PHONY. 

On Sunday I had a "GOOD ENERGY" experience that was SOOOO mind blowing that I tried to tell ny son last nite but it was like my mind had   🤯 in it. It was like when I left  🤔 .. was I just IN HEAVEN??? OK this may not make sense but you may AT LEAST get the idea of SHARING good energy at a TINY university Tim's by Dundas (Square) TO. Hmm? there were 3 women in there waiting for washroom confusing the line, who were totally oblivious to THE REST OF "our awesome". 

1) The man behind me and I were confused where the line was. He was trying to tall to me but I was afraid he was homeless and going toast me for coffee so I did not get TOO talkative. It was very busy and for me more stressful. Turns out when I was finally waiting to say hi to "MY Counter GUY" this man behind me asked if I would like a coffee! Even my son was amazed at that.

2) I had actually gone INSTEAD of coffee to give THEM some Lindt chocolate. They are so nice and my new friend is amazing and interesting from (Tibet). The new girl had just given me 2 Tim's instead of one with a big smile. I expected it would be quiet but it was very busy. I was giving THEM and not BUYING COFFE because this lovely Human was worried I was having way too many coffees and too late in the day. I was going to promise to try LESS coffee ADDICTION for the week. He only works weekends there. I must not yet have given the Lindt because THEN I said "you guys work so hard, I could never do your multitasking" and I left ..

3) The new girl must have remembered me because she said I am an awesome customer so friendly she said I was the best .. so I felt great! Damn I am so confused I think the day befor we had discussed I could come off as "A LOT" to my kids matching my BOTH (Nice) and a (PAIN) at once life theory. IN any case telling people nICE Authentic things makes THEM no spread joy to others and the positive energy just INCREASES. (today it is more the NEGATIVE is cancerous, so we must WORK HARD to change that.

4) When the girl said I was so nice I was embarrassed and sent it back to them That was when I said they are GREAT! Somehow the guy after, in the line (a Russian or Ukrainian maybe?) was listening to all this and for the second time in my life said "YOU are the good energy .. you spread good energy" OMG I am getting goosebumps remember this whole experience. ALSO because it is the second in a few months .. never before in Canada ... when a cashier said I had such good energy. NOW .. that takes us to PLACE Energy!

PLACE energy! I love it here in my new area .. SUCH Gtreat energy. Where I lived I hated everything and everybody hate mE! Life is a vicious circle of problems.  When we handle them alone life is ugly, but when we CONNECT as just a HUMAN Family we can make those problems feel SMALLER. 

So US vs THE it is .. those who only want us to suffer for their wealth and POWER. (LOOSH farm research ?) 

THis Tim's comment almost made me cry. So often in my new area even smiles or door holding make us feel we have CONNECTION to a human family. I was going to compliment several Tim's but I don't even know how to .. but this beautifully shows how we each INCREASE our Human Stock exchange every day. OR .. we ca n REDUCE the value of our our Human stock exchange. Usually this Maple Leaf LOnblaws has lovely people working and it is. joy. This day a lady in a walker started yelling at a guy who went ahead in the loto line. She was freakin 10 feet back using her walker as a reason to scream VICTIM. The guy was nice .. I probably would have yelled at her if it was me. There were such nice people in MY line that I realized maybe it was her 5th time ignored or diminished and she was lashing out unreasonably. I understand how stressed people are today .. so we quit thinking she was so awful. I am becoming a PREACHER, the way I talk to everybody everywhere ! And I am getting more comfortable with more than 1 person listening to me!  🙈 

Too bad that I should NOT be seen anywhere since I do not change my clothes! Even worse I do not shower or change clothes anymore. (In winter you can get away with this but now it's SUMMER!) HEY! We DO have to boycott EVERYTHING! .. all the NEEDLESS consumption. If I had a friend, I doubt that they would say I smell bad. Deodorant is overrated! HAH .. now I remember why I quit .. too many kinds, too confusing for one who cannot choose between choc or strawberry ice cream. Finding out I USUALLY do not smell bad made me angry .. conned into another CONSUMPTION! (I guess because I only sit at a desk and take walk breaks and eat bland food?) I just had my naturopath tell me I look fabulous for almost 80. My ex said I had an ugly neck in my 20's so I used so many creams. But after 18 years divorced things were getting RIDICULOUS .. 6 or 8 cats to open what with serums yes cream and day vs nite. That was ridiculous too much work for me. Before I knew about "black don't crack" I asked an older lady with BEAUTIFUL skin if she would share her secret? PALMERS. cocoa butter on a push pump at the time 7$. So I got such a lovely compliment from maybe 18 years of a PUMP, no 8 lids spending today 11$ not 250!! This is the perfect example of how we are going to quit CRAP CONSUMPTION! And for less :CRAP CONSUMPTION I got such an awesome compliment. WE have been so had .. we should be hiding in embarasment! 😔 NO MORE! WE QUIT!! "We the people" will not be used as profit SOURCES or SAD energy needs anymore (loosh farming)

Thurs. May 21, 2026, 2:30 pm. IMAGE above is perfect .. HUMAN Intelligence from SHARING!

All of these are AMAZING missing RESOURCES. Instead of cultivating these ADVANTAGES or ASSETS, we divide, demonize and just like babies BLAME "the Other". No wonder our world is its its last stage of COLLAPSE! But remember everything is BOTH (good) AND (bad)

To remain EMPATHETIC To mean, heading cruel Left Brain warriors .. remember they are MISSING curiosity and IMAGINATION. The make life hectic but what a BORE to have a mind that ONLY CARES ABOUT TAKE/USE (TWIST?) to win.That would also be exhausting I guess but NOT at ALL in a fun way. "AWE" can only come with "wonder"! What a horrible life to have no imagination or wonder. Can we separate into those of us who wonder about reflections of light or in buildings pr the beauty of ART or music creating emotion? .. and those loving sport or being police or Army in CONTROL?  

Tues. May 26, 2026, 11:00 am.

(See Mcgilchrist ACTION (left) vs THINK (Right) brain hemisphere NEUROSCIENCE) I am an EXTREME RIGHT BRAIN 'Thinker". It is NO FUN to be around me, but for me it is EXHAUSTING. Thinking is wondering questioning, researching examining analyzing evaluating EVERYTHING. hmm? I guess THINKING has 2 layers SEEING and then IMAGINING BETTER! OMG! I just understood my life of HELL! You think you hate being around me? Try BEING STUCK WITH ME!!

side point .. (I first wrote this and then my brain exploded 🤯 .. "But then the IMAGINATION sets in") .. my poor kids! AND poor me. HELLA Life of HARD never ending WORK! Yes, girl GENIUS IS work .. "you have not worked for 30 years! you welfare bum"  😢 hah I bet I worked HARDER than YOU ..  so OBSESSED with my INVENTIVE IDEAS! 

New para? Hah my damn daughter always said I was "poor me". YES! but she had no clue! Her TWISTING has actually taught me so much BECAUSE I question and wonder about even LIES! (MY brain is a careening Barn Fly or ? a cyclone recently turning tornado (more directed?) How could she THINK that I was a welfare bum?? I "work" very hard on finding a better way to create Total human healTh. Why is only making MONEY respected? HAH again .. half the world does .. ONLY respect MORE MONEY! 😈 Left brain ACTION people MAGA and even WOKE feel "work" is only what you do FOR MONEY. SORRY SERVICE to COUNTRY! should NOT be calculated by taking the chance to DIE in WAR!! WAR is too lazy to think! So Left brains go to WAR because they SEE only BINARY either /OR! NO everything is grey .. NOT black and White. HAVE we been the good guys in recent wars?? So SERVICE to "we the people" is what we ALL should do! Every day .. all the time!! Contribute to our Human NET VALUE Accounting system .. FAR MORE than just MONEY! THINKING, imagining how "we the people" can have a BETTER quality of life OR .. TOTAL Human health. 

LEFT Brains ACTION beings are DESTROYING CIVILIZATION. Globalization plus their FAST ACTION BINARY LAZY method has allowed then to TAKE ALL POWER and CONTROL! With their selfish, shallow MIND SET everything in life is EASY .. either GOOD or BAD (Non Christian) THEY are TOO LAZY (or toxin disabled) to THINK. No I am NO welfare bum .. I have worked harder than ANYONE on the HUMAN Life Ledgers that we all contribute to or TAKE from. Balanced humans GIVE and TAKE. Good humans contribute MORE to our human FAMILY and Home than we TAKE. Left brans MAGA and screaming WOKE TAKE much more than they give.  😂THEY are the ones that destroyed the VALUE of all things that do not have a PRICE TAG!! 😱 SO! THEY Moved us to a $$$ accounting system instead of NORMAL!! Normal Human Accounting manages ALL resources NOT by a piece of paper but by the quality of life of our ONE human Family! Screw church country and party .. let's build the LAST us vs THEM WAR .. OR .. they can SEE THE REAL LIGHT and join us! 

HAH! So our WAR is those wanting a NORMAL HUMAN ACCOUNTING SYSTEM that respects and takes RESPONSIBILITY for ALL resources even TRUST and HOPE!

I hear they want to get a base on the moon by 10 years. What so we can destroy it like we have the earth and humans??  😱 OK if everything is BOTH good AND bad ..Let's send the zombies there!! 👏 or we have to kill them. A Zombie is selfish and shallow gone STUPID and evil .. willing to HARM others in our family just for MONEY! ZOMBIES are destroying REAL NORMAL GOOD Humans! We are overdosing, committing suicide or raging into mass murder?

Mon. May 25, 2026, 10:45 am. MEMORIAL DAY!! 

Humanity is a collection of ENERGY. TOGETHER we are our collective good or bad TOTALLED ENERGY. Today our totalled individual energy is NOT GOOD. if you are NOT "depressed" 2.0 .. you are OBLIVIOUS to those around you! Atmosphere or SOCIETY are the TOTALLED energy of all of us together! Today most of us are struggling in far more ways than just $$! But only able to focus on $ surviving destroys POSITIVE energy. A POSITIVE or GOOD Energy ("BANK ACCOUNT") or Life Ledger .. is a HUGE RESOURCE! EVERYTHING CONNECTS to form our SOCIETY. When the Life Ledgers of all are POSITIVE the PLACE is happy. Let's get together and build our "happy place" .. the HUMAN Family and home shared for GOOD together. It is NOT being a naive "dreamer"! We all want that so let's do our job! Every day we CONTRIBUTE in SERVICE to the Human FAMILY .. not country .. every day caring for the good of all .. not church country OR PARTY. Just ONE of us . ONE family!

Just HEARD most awesome SOUND! Was that police siren MALFUNCTIONING? When I hear a siren, of course a Right brain "THINKER Worrier" WONDERS what happened?? hope they are OK! not badly harmed! But this sound was like a siren but OPPOSITE ?energy .. it sounded like the ENERGY of "HELP IS COMING! We GOT YOU". 🤔 THAT!! Is the Weirdest thing ever .. goose bumps so often now! 🤯 That WEIRD siren sound is what we will AIM FOR with POLICE! Instead of Left brain "GET the BAD Guy!" COPS, How about a police TEAM that is here to help and SUPPORT US!? Humans are just NORMALLY good beings! After 80 years of complaining about our SYSTEMS failing us, I will NOT change that basic BELIEF. There are MORE of us so let's stick together and TAKE DOWN the REAL few EVIL. 

N.P. ? Humans go BAD when they GET NO RESPECT and feel DEVALUED. UNFAIR share = vandalism, stealing and rage eventually creates MURDER. OR .. with zero Right brain (THINK Wiring) they are DEVOID of MIND and "Heart". These people who can only live to WIN .. to TAKE and USE and to hell with the HUMAN FAMILY's destruction, sorry THEY GO TO MARS .. NOW .. or we have to MURDER THEM! 👿 God will even SUPPRT US .. we still GET to HEAVEN! THEY .. the "CARING for others" disabled, and pure eveil are destroying the HUMAN RACE! They are already dead .. ZOMBIES with no mind and HEART. The NORMAL natural HUMAN way is that DESTRUCTION must be stopped. If a virus is destroying us we kill the virus! Brain Disabled  zombies devoid of mind and heart are destroying GOOD Humans. Their selfish shallow behaviour has left us with TERMINAL CANCER! Their toxic imagined "progress" for profit and power has made us not just physically sick but harmed the ENERGY of our society. SAD hopeless People make a SAD SICK SOCIETY!! (We are also to blame ONLY following as SHEEP or thinking stupid protest will help fix things (SEE hot DOG protest") )

So the CONVENIENCE Question of my 1972? First Conference "What will we do to OCCUPY ourself, once we have nothing much to do?". Remember an automatic washing machine and not hanging clothes OUT to dry was still quite new. The microwave was just becoming common. I always think how ironic that conference wa because we are MORE Rushed and STRESSED than ever. The very OPPOSITE happened. It does NOT make sesne! So you begin to question . have e been CONNED with EVERYTHING?Since nothing WORKS .. none of our SYSTEMS WORK for us! the above RESOURCES assets or TALENTS would be very nice ! WHY are they SILENCED. I guess everything IS scam? Education does NO teaching how to handle life more easily. Health CARE is only profit from bandaids, NO REAL health. Law and ORDER only works for THEM. NOT for WE the PEOPLE at all.

Is the whole LEGAL SYSTEM a scam to make money? We need my NEW Truth / for FAIR calculation CAREERS in our new FAIR ORDER SYSTEM 

Friday, May 22, 2026, 7:30 pm.

BUT .. this is also what destroyed us! LAZY "I can't do anything about it so why worry!" killed HUMANITY!So see! everyday more proof I am right! Everything is "BOTH/AND" PLUS Connects!

But Chin hair OBLIVION or ignorance, lack of awareness or ATTENTION .. ONLY wastes my energy! Just relax .. save that energy for BOYCOTTING evil Corporations .. if they will not come BACK to HUMAN with us!!.

I used to spend a fortune doing ELECTROLYSIS for CHIN Hair. So embarrassing but maybe getting old turns it in my case ?blond .. white? I used to have DARK Hair, so I did painful expensive electrolysis. Then I must have forgot for awhile? But now those damn hairs start out SO irritating, so coarse when they pop out. BUT they are too TINY to grab with the tweezers, so frustrating! So they are VISIBLE but very tiny and so irritating. But stupid me today I finally thought UNLESS I TOUCH them and feel how LOUD they seem .. they actually HARM NOTHING .. yet I let them frustrate the hell out of me. Am I making sense. Hope I am communicating clearly. If these stupid ugly monsters are only a little visible in direct light? yet UNREMOVABLE easily .. the JUST DO NOT TOUCH THEM! Give it a try to TWEEZE. When it becomes FRUSTRATING .. FORGET IT!! Would that not be a good solution? DO it anywhere that frustration ONLY wastes energy!

Except I have been doing this with my last EVIL Godaddy site (NON FUNCTIONING!) .. AND my hated iCloud Photos! Instead of somehow QUITTING and retrieving my photos .. I just paid $200 for apple cloud AGAIN. God I hate apple gone evil. EVERY COMPANY has gone evil. What is WRONG with these people!!?? So I guess ONCE AGAIN the trick is BALANCE. Where it is just wasted frustration .. STOP IT! Where it is more valuable to STICK OUT THE DAMN PROBLEM (like waiting 57 minutes for go daddy help .. UNHEARD of 10 years ago! or take off 2 or 3 days to look after my million ART Photos! .. JUST DO IT! When you have no money AND no time .. life is definitely HARD. What did Colbert's "Strawberry fields" Paul M song say? "Life is so easy ... for those with eyes CLOSED!" Perfect! Left brains worry about nothing "WE/US" .. they think only just "ME!mine, here, now" I waste my time worrying which is most important? what should I do first .. how do I get all this done 😱 .. all energy wasted going in circles panicked! Not THEM .. they have self control and CONFIDENCE.

Sun. May 24, 2026, 8:30 pm. MARK! This is completely unfinished . PUT Funeral words! get photo

I have been thinking heaven way more. if we are going to blow up "the END" I always expected to finally see my FAMILY AGAIN! So instead of fear and worry .. we will party (Have fun together) while we work toward the PARTY in the sky!

I had so many great clear ideas to write had so so much to get done when a young friend texted that my old "Nursing Home" neighbour had died (Senior Scram and he was like me) So threw me off .. terrified I will die BEFORE I get my 7 decades of SLOW work out for use. my old friend from when we OPENED the senior home in 2019 is GONE. So at first I was sad and panicked but luckily the same young girl who thought of me (She made me feel more valued than "family" did ("daughter")) said it was smart of me to just use it as a motivator .. and later I thought hmm it is easier to imagine heaven with a recent gone "traveler".

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Mom. May 25, 2026, 3:15 pm

EDIT .. check the order and logic of several things CONNECTED. Communicate more orderly!

don't let "WHY are you sending me a ROSE??" angry sounding text end POSSIBILITY. Maybe this is wy so many YOUNG GUYS seem to love talking to me? Maybe 2 strangers talking is just no fences, just the self speaking? No worries .. just blathering together? DAMN my poor poor young men. Hw selfish of me! I always took it as I can't be all bad! But like my daughter rightly said "IT isn't always about YOU" (In Left brain TWIST add re my 5th wheel escape when school was out .. why not during the day, instead when they came home! It was ME! embarrassed no job, people will know!) OK my BARN FLY BRAIN (crashing around vs just go out the DOOR!) forgot where going! I am wrong I am so cool! Those poor guys TODAY are so starved just to talk to anyone but especially practise with a female .. they are very happy. Instead of thinking about COOL ME .. that is so sad they are afraid to talk to young women. This is why WOMEN that are forces on FEMSL can get lost! You are NOT FAIR to my men! They are afraid to talk because you scream assault ridiculously! Take some responsibility!! I thought you were equal?? What selfish shallow bitches women have become! If you are equal and I guy goes too far you kick him the balls. BUT .. you think you can dress slut but scream assault if he looks your way?? OFF the planet girl .. You are NOT a FAIR Human .. selfish leads to EVIL!

This is such a sweet story .. just skim it if bored! Take my advice .. TALK TO STRANGERS! Young man in elevator .. summer dressed complimenting me

INCREASING the value of our HUMAN Stock exchange. joy I got returned to old black man on corner re foot FINGER .. he laughed so hard but I said too young.

Thurs. May 28, 2026, 7:30 pm.

This is Depression 2.0 .. not a Chemical IMBALANCE like old Mental illnesses .. just a state of mind caused by PAYING ATTENTION and seeing our world is COLLAPSING! But today I discovered a new TOOL! The photography as life tool means you can CHOOSE your viewpoint! I was photographing such sadness. Disrespect for history .. an 1800's painted sign of photo engraving. So we need DATA centres for the cloud selfies we save (we used to use a shoebox!) but we do not even RESPECT that amazing sign .. just demolish it with its building!! I want to call this B F 2.0 because the Founding Fathers are writing in their graves! The DUMBOCRACY we have created was NEVER their goal! B F brought the first Printing press to PHILA .. and there were no pictures! Photo engraving was amazing progress .. but we have NO RESPECT! incredible sadness for me since my first biz idea was a WAIT TIME ART TV Network produced by Youth at Risk locally. Of course Iphone destroyed even SHARED WAIT TIME!! 🙈 I never thought of that before! Actually can not believe that 26+ years ago I was working to create UTOPIA with the WWW !!!! Must remember to send this to Tim Berners Lee. He surely did not want what happened to his invention! I planned to connect KNOWLEDGE to a huge TRUTH/FAIR Order system that could destroy ADVERTISING. HAH! Instead our whole society is built on advertising and its INDUSTRY value tripled. And we see what happened to QUALITY of LIFE. We will try the original idea again in our LAST "Church country" templates. TWISTED LIES is an impossible way to live. HOWEVER if everything is BOTH/AND that means both POSITIVE and NEGATIVE .. why don't we work to FIX the negative and the RELAX looking at the Positive!? I have hated "positive" people because that seems lazy! I saw an ugly building beside a BEAUTY OLD ONE. Why not be POSITIVE and look ate the beauty building. WHO CARES about the ugly one. in that situation it is true "You can't DO anything about the ugly, so why focus on it!" BUT!!! Say with iPhone .. it will destroy us! Phone faced people are becoming ZOMBIES obvious to our human FAMILY and HOME. Put the god damn phone AWAY!! STOP IT! You CAN do something about the destruction of our SOCIETY or human family! So do not give me the positive crap. BUT .. from here on when I fall to despair .. go to work on making change .. and THEN look at the POSIVE and r relax and ENJOY the day. SO .. even BEING POSITIVE is BAD! First do the necessary WORK .. then enjoy the positive. Beside the block of photo engraving DESTRUCTION is a MOST Beautiful Historic Museum! From here on when the DESTRUCTION becomes overwhelming and I want OFF the PLANET .. I will look around the corner and see exciting adventures! A Worrier is NEGATIVE. Do what you can about the negative .. and then ENJOY the positive! A nI is the last invention we get to take to extrem and excess. Humanity will be extinct. NORMAL Humans will be gone, replaced by ZOMBIES in Digital DYSTOPIA or purgatory. BUT after sharing and ringing ALARM BELLS now we can breath and relax for a bit even enjoying some FUN with A I. BUT .. Don't be so negative" is the LAZY irresponsible behaviour that has DESTROYED the HUMAN family.

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